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COLLECTION 1 |
Often I reached out
Often I came close
Often I pulled back
if there was a way to change
wave a magic wand
command a jeanie
roll a lucky dice
Take me deep
Swallow my pride
Tie me down
Chain me up
Let bleed desire's fire
on freedom's alter
before sacred oaths
dissolve saturn's grip that strangles silken whispers
before YES is breathed
and dies without belief
Like I do
each time I reach out
then pull back
12-25-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1151)
While reviewing the past
the way it was
how we were
such easy thoughts
nothing ever to worry
I realized
I saw
I knew
now was just a cartoon
of what would have been
if we could have
been
now
then
12-25-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1990)
Broke the mode
of who I was
now you see
the source of my shadow
the end of my projection
the face behind every mask.
Just before midnight
I began a new day
another era
a beautiful me
alone in flight
over my broken mode.
So the who you see
who looks like me
but acts so free
is but master of ceremony
grand performance
finally on stage
with little left to offer
but
the way I am
again today
in broken mode
once again I am.
12-25-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(99D)
So sure
that this was the right direction
everything always
had led to this spot
until we discovered
that we weren't here
and neither was the spot
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1342 B)
We drew a line
in the sand
but the tides
washed us away
leaving the line
that we drew
dividing us
from being one
to fight the tides
that came
and took us
away
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1745 B)
Buried treasures
like hidden talents
leaves us poor
and all alone
with no one
sharing
what we'd have
if hidden treasures
and buried talents
weren't.
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(99 D)
Shattered illusions
Scattered conclusions
Battered delusions
dissolved by the dawn of reason
Now nothing is left
but created reality
so clear
I can see forever
Hello New Morning
Good Bye every night
12-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1256)
At a final frontier
we conquered fear
to devour
each other
like any
cannibal of love
would
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(62 D)
The day after
The night before
left me
wanting to wake with you
once again
in the day after
the night before
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1405)
This year so quickly went
I went back
to do it once again
just to know
it really had happened.
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1565)
I looked in the dictionary
to find meaning
but no explanation
cleared up
my wonderment
of what
this means
You and I
three words in the dictionary
one in my mind.
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(512)
I always thought
one more would be enough
and when it is
it will be
But for now
here I am
only one more
from being enough.
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(288)
I was wondering
what will be the last word said
the final line written
the last caress
the final bite
before I die
then I realized
I wouldn't remember anyway
so on I ramble
write
touch
and eat
like any eternal consumer
would
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(842)
If each thing done
we do as
that to be our masterpiece
then our life
that will be
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(349 A)
Again
my friend
the end
does send
this trend
again
ABOUT FACE
CHANGE DIRECTION
whisper loudly
the blind feel what we don't see
the deaf see what we don't hear
the lonely know every face in the crowd
but at the end
I'll still be your friend
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(6 B)
'Lucky me'
said the tree
'I will never be
lost on a freeway
short on what to say
found shopping
seen hopping
lucky me
lucky me
said the tree
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(956 D)
All the advice ever asked
never led anyone to the stars
all the questions pursued
never changed the unexpected
all the theories so explained
never
ever
and it will still all be
the same
again tomorrow
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(12)
'Oh No! Oh No!'
said the tree
and all the people stopped
to question a tree
that would talk
but never more
did that tree say
And that is how
the religion of the tree began
and why everyone
chants
'Oh No! Oh No!'
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1155 B)
All our possessions
are but props
to insulate our space
before we became to know
that we never
needed them anyway.
12-27-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(12 B)
Cold!
Only the physical body knows
take away the cold
I'm still here
take away my body
the cold remains
if I could
I would be
a naked thought sitting on an arctic flow
and diving into frozen illusion tundra
I'd swim in the cold
and pretend my body was with me
like I do now
in this cold world
I've been given to wander.
12-27-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(120)
As fragile as each new moment is
the strength to proceed into in
is but BELIEF
given wings
to give flight
when needed to be.
12-27-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 D a)
Nature brought forth humans
because
dinosaurs couldn't paint
amoebas wouldn't carry a tune
apes refused to write poetry
and there was no one to understand this.
12-27-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1002 B)
The reason we do everything
done
we did
is to look at it at the end
to see if
we
did
it correctly
since the beginning.
12-27-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1467 A)
Like a poem
going no where
a song
without a tune
seeds planted in the desert
and love with no dawn
life is
without direction.
12-27-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(908 B)
We had so many backup plans
that we crashed
backing up
never seeing
where we were going.
12-27-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1769)
While looking for the perfect gift
silence screamed at me
'GIVE NOTHING
BECAUSE THAT IS ALL
WE SHALL HAVE AT THE END'
and now
we could get use to
getting it early.
12-28-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1983)
I never wanted to be
anything more
than everything
that you are
I never wanted to be white
or so poor
so unknown
I'm not even a part of history's pathways
but if there weren't shadows like me
there would never be
stars like you.
12-28-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell NeuageSA (571 B)
The last verse
was in your purse
all you had to do
was open and see
but you shot through
and left me free
Yet always the waves
reach the horizon
poems seldom rhyme
nature does not understand humans
and the last verse
was in your purse
lost with my heart
amongst all the things
you carry
wherever you fly.
12-29-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1427)
If I said good night
would that change the orbit of the sun
make the collide with Mars
or a garden snail learn to run
probably not probably not
because within preconceived ideas
giraffes don't become butterflies
love never dies
and I don't hear you
saying good night to me.
12-30-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(380)
We don't live in troubled times
troubled times live in us
swallow butterflies
eat rainbows
drink stars
DIGESTED CHANGE
takes away
troubled times.
12-30-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1743)
I keep thinking it's a different day
another life
who opened the windows
and let in
these times
this place
that reflection
which could never be
anything more
than a different day
another life.
Often I reached out
Often I came close
Often I pulled back
if there was a way to change
wave a magic wand
command a jeanie
roll a lucky dice
Take me deep
Swallow my pride
Tie me down
Chain me up
Let bleed desire's fire
on freedom's alter
before sacred oaths
dissolve saturn's grip that strangles silken whispers
before YES is breathed
and dies without belief
Like I do
each time I reach out
then pull back
12-25-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1151)
While reviewing the past
the way it was
how we were
such easy thoughts
nothing ever to worry
I realized
I saw
I knew
now was just a cartoon
of what would have been
if we could have
been
now
then
12-25-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1990)
Broke the mode
of who I was
now you see
the source of my shadow
the end of my projection
the face behind every mask.
Just before midnight
I began a new day
another era
a beautiful me
alone in flight
over my broken mode.
So the who you see
who looks like me
but acts so free
is but master of ceremony
grand performance
finally on stage
with little left to offer
but
the way I am
again today
in broken mode
once again I am.
12-25-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(99D)
So sure
that this was the right direction
everything always
had led to this spot
until we discovered
that we weren't here
and neither was the spot
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1342 B)
We drew a line
in the sand
but the tides
washed us away
leaving the line
that we drew
dividing us
from being one
to fight the tides
that came
and took us
away
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1745 B)
Buried treasures
like hidden talents
leaves us poor
and all alone
with no one
sharing
what we'd have
if hidden treasures
and buried talents
weren't.
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(99 D)
Shattered illusions
Scattered conclusions
Battered delusions
dissolved by the dawn of reason
Now nothing is left
but created reality
so clear
I can see forever
Hello New Morning
Good Bye every night
12-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1256)
At a final frontier
we conquered fear
to devour
each other
like any
cannibal of love
would
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(62 D)
The day after
The night before
left me
wanting to wake with you
once again
in the day after
the night before
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1405)
This year so quickly went
I went back
to do it once again
just to know
it really had happened.
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1565)
I looked in the dictionary
to find meaning
but no explanation
cleared up
my wonderment
of what
this means
You and I
three words in the dictionary
one in my mind.
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(512)
I always thought
one more would be enough
and when it is
it will be
But for now
here I am
only one more
from being enough.
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(288)
I was wondering
what will be the last word said
the final line written
the last caress
the final bite
before I die
then I realized
I wouldn't remember anyway
so on I ramble
write
touch
and eat
like any eternal consumer
would
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(842)
If each thing done
we do as
that to be our masterpiece
then our life
that will be
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(349 A)
Again
my friend
the end
does send
this trend
again
ABOUT FACE
CHANGE DIRECTION
whisper loudly
the blind feel what we don't see
the deaf see what we don't hear
the lonely know every face in the crowd
but at the end
I'll still be your friend
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(6 B)
'Lucky me'
said the tree
'I will never be
lost on a freeway
short on what to say
found shopping
seen hopping
lucky me
lucky me
said the tree
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(956 D)
All the advice ever asked
never led anyone to the stars
all the questions pursued
never changed the unexpected
all the theories so explained
never
ever
and it will still all be
the same
again tomorrow
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(12)
'Oh No! Oh No!'
said the tree
and all the people stopped
to question a tree
that would talk
but never more
did that tree say
And that is how
the religion of the tree began
and why everyone
chants
'Oh No! Oh No!'
12-26-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1155 B)
All our possessions
are but props
to insulate our space
before we became to know
that we never
needed them anyway.
12-27-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(12 B)
Cold!
Only the physical body knows
take away the cold
I'm still here
take away my body
the cold remains
if I could
I would be
a naked thought sitting on an arctic flow
and diving into frozen illusion tundra
I'd swim in the cold
and pretend my body was with me
like I do now
in this cold world
I've been given to wander.
12-27-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(120)
As fragile as each new moment is
the strength to proceed into in
is but BELIEF
given wings
to give flight
when needed to be.
12-27-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 D a)
Nature brought forth humans
because
dinosaurs couldn't paint
amoebas wouldn't carry a tune
apes refused to write poetry
and there was no one to understand this.
12-27-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1002 B)
The reason we do everything
done
we did
is to look at it at the end
to see if
we
did
it correctly
since the beginning.
12-27-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1467 A)
Like a poem
going no where
a song
without a tune
seeds planted in the desert
and love with no dawn
life is
without direction.
12-27-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(908 B)
We had so many backup plans
that we crashed
backing up
never seeing
where we were going.
12-27-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1769)
While looking for the perfect gift
silence screamed at me
'GIVE NOTHING
BECAUSE THAT IS ALL
WE SHALL HAVE AT THE END'
and now
we could get use to
getting it early.
12-28-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1983)
I never wanted to be
anything more
than everything
that you are
I never wanted to be white
or so poor
so unknown
I'm not even a part of history's pathways
but if there weren't shadows like me
there would never be
stars like you.
12-28-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell NeuageSA (571 B)
The last verse
was in your purse
all you had to do
was open and see
but you shot through
and left me free
Yet always the waves
reach the horizon
poems seldom rhyme
nature does not understand humans
and the last verse
was in your purse
lost with my heart
amongst all the things
you carry
wherever you fly.
12-29-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1427)
If I said good night
would that change the orbit of the sun
make the collide with Mars
or a garden snail learn to run
probably not probably not
because within preconceived ideas
giraffes don't become butterflies
love never dies
and I don't hear you
saying good night to me.
12-30-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(380)
We don't live in troubled times
troubled times live in us
swallow butterflies
eat rainbows
drink stars
DIGESTED CHANGE
takes away
troubled times.
12-30-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1743)
I keep thinking it's a different day
another life
who opened the windows
and let in
these times
this place
that reflection
which could never be
anything more
than a different day
another life.
12-30-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(485 B)
Woken highway
reached out
I held on
through the deserts
ofpver rivers
into mountains
This highway
would not listen to my pleas to stop
This highway
had heard desperate hooves
as horses escaped in the 1800s
had see Porches and Harleys
had felt pain
joy
but never aloneness
like I so often have
This highway
took me to this realm
I can not escape
my family calls it madness
my doctor - a genetic flaw
my psychic said I was born to the highway
I its slave
and it will be this highway
at the end of the tunnel
where beings of light
will throw me back
and tell me to follow the highway
until I know where it's headed
(like if I would anyway - ever)
Now I'm quite use to this highway which keeps going
into other dimensions
like I do
each time I think of the road once traveled
the road futures will travel
This highway never ending.
12-31-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell NeuageSA. (2055)
Morning swallowed
my dreams
made me hungry
to see if
they'd come true
like everything else
I believe in
does
5-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(978)
At the beginning
when all there was
was already there
waiting to be put together
like you and me
and the galaxies
too
5-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(64)
I was so sleepy
I slept standing up
while the world
lay on its side
watching
5-1-93 (838)
the reason
we are here
is because dawn
doesn't want to
come alone
5-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1430)
like steps through history
or a wander through dreams
today's beliefs,efs
grew out of yesterday's crumbled ideologies
for tomorrow's
individual freedom
finally won
to take wings
never to land again
5-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(916)
I learned shorthand
speed reading
computerization
experienced Paris in a day
read 'Readers Digest'
condensed pasteurized homogenized great novels
and watched history of civilization
but time stood still
when your touch
became so
involved
5-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(492)
I concentrated so hard
on this moment
that yesterday and tomorrow disappeared
now
like neapolitan ice cream
melted
contains the former and the latter
in a future past tense
that has no ease
of
explanation
in this moment
5-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(316 C)
There is little difference
between you and me
except that I am conscious
of the little difference
(even calling them my own)
and you see them
being but variations
of your greater self
5-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1430 D)
This life goes so fast
that when I die
I will need
a thousand years
to review all that happened
in this life
5-1-93 (1508)
The continuous pouring out
of creativity
fueled forever's freedom's
perceptual persuasion's performance
reflected perfectly
for me
to
know
5-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1394)
I wouldn't want to live on Venus
because there are no trees
nor on Mars with its lack of flowers
and there is no chocolate on Jupiter
or ice cream on Mercury
while on earth
everything I want
is between the sea
the trees
and the shopping mall.
5-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(858)
If I knew how to write
a poem
I would
if I knew how to sing
I would
If I could dance, take photos
paint or tell your future
I would
But all I can do
is build you a castle
in the sand
and offer it to you
before the sea
take it from me
5-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(376)
the reason
we don't have wings
is because we don't have to fly north
for the winter
But can stay all winter-warm
wrapped in each other's
warmth
5-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(946)
The reason
we keep coming to earth
is to learn to stop dying
but we keep
getting into the Plato trap
of this is it
why keep going
5-5-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(946 C)
Not every time
is everything
going to be
the way it is
at other times
But instead
like any spinning top everything gets a chance\
to be close at hand
again
if we see
5-5-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1130 C)
We rush through life
like we're in a hurry
to get to the end
not knowing what it is
except that
it will be different
than the rush through
this life is
5-593 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1768)
I write
for the same reasons
a bird flies
far from an oil slick
a whale stays away
from a stream
and buffaloes avoid mountains
I write only
to find these answers
that everyone else
already knows
5-5-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(858)
As if this moment could be preserved:
placed in a safe-deposit box, frozen in space, cloned, kept intact
maybe even used again
reincarnated, transmigrated, resuscitated,
recycled moments
in another reality
a paralleling toyed universe
where earth-used moments
are packaged and sold in day-fill programmes
Drive-thru-take-away-moment-services
'Yes I will take three moments to go
two yesterdays and one tomorrow'
And I reach out to take a hold of a yesterday
the moment we said good bye
in hopes of renaming it and bringing it back to life
only to discover the moment I wanted returned
had been used by a patriot in an alternative drifting energy force
and was no longer mine
to have again
but only to observe
in mutational memory cells
reflecting changing interpretation of
the way it once was
11-28-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 C)
Before: After was known
When storms were calm
Emotions describable
And colour bland
Answers were easy
But meaning wasn't.
11-29-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(76)
Inside wholeness
separation is unknown
like the splitting of an atom
is unknown
inside wholeness
But the results
are the same
11-29-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(576)
Curtains drawn
over windows of time
left imagination
without a view
like an unlit night
shows what can not be seen
when all that is revealed
is nothing at all
11-29-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(136 B)
In the morning
I looked forward to
meeting the new me
that I heard about
in a dream
But the new me
stayed in the dream
while mirror showed
the same snapshot
it had shown
every other morning
fuzzy wakefulness
far from any dream thought possible
11-30-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(582)
While sharing one another
with each other
We traded lives
and worked on correcting
all the faults we had
perceived in each other
before we had traded lives
then we traded back
only to die laughing
at what we had created
Perhaps next time
we'll just accept and not modify
live and not die
and
share and not trade
11-30-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1993)
While making way
for new experiences
the past was stored away
in the attic
where a spider
web-woven
devoured the past
and the present
ran naked
knowing such a fate
could be escaped
if experiences
no longer were stored
away
11-29-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1985)
Without risk
a billion galaxies
would have not begun to dance
with questions
a billion suns
in our galaxy
would have not take a first deep breath
without nature
chaos would have no joy
without you
a billion cells in my life
will lose their spark.
21-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(2051)
Close to where I want to be
But never there
like a future
reachable
not holdable
hoped for
not known
seeable
But only in a mist
before form
covers now
in the never to be
so in today once again
as always
all is within reach
and parts even attainable
but never all
never all
never all
12-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(118 B)
The release
freed me:
What I once wanted
no longer needed
flew forth
like love does
once it has wings
12-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1479)
Fresh start
reinvented me
today is the reincarnation of yesterday
But I'm not
Reinvented me
is all I can see.
12-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(231 B)
yy
Without sounding
too philosophical
spiritual
down-to-earth
metaphysical
or psychological
I need you
like any farmer
the rain
would
12-2-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(2051 B)
I thought nature
was blushing
from listening to me
speak about you
But it was dawn
that was making nature come
with such colour
not my description of you
12-2-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(674)
sky cleared
darkened thoughts
blocking dawn
so morning could see
my wish had come true
you and I free of
darkened thoughts
12-2-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1290)
Just when I understood
how the final piece fitted
when nature cheered
exploration showed meaning
changes laughed in reason
I awoke
to see clouds disperse
love leap forward
success call my name
12-3-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(873 B)
I use to think
I was the luckiest person
on earth
to be with you
now I realize
you're the lucky one
12-3-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(742)
I didn't notice
a difference between
day and night
until you pointed out
that is how
we are
shooting stars
gone too far
passing midnight
passing noon
we'll know soon
which we're like
which we're not
but sameness
is left out doors
somewhere between
day and night
12-3-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(321 B)
I just thought we could stop
along the coast of our first touch
atop the mountain of desire first conquered
past our first laugh over a whispering horizon
But I just got a message from the dawn
saying memory is better than promise
promise is better than forever
forever is better than forever
and in circles
the merry-go-round never strays
like my feelings for you
always changing
never ceasing
always finding
never seeking
always one
you're never close
because I'm always there
just around a corner
in the back of your memory
12-3-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(480)
I wanted to be a legend
a whisper amongst time's shadows
spoken about in parliament
dreamt of in alleys
cried over
in Delphi often
number one on MTV
a source of multiple orgasm\inner space colonization\political revolution
the dawn at road's end
And I was
somewhere in time
12-3-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(778)
I wanted to be safe
so I gave you a single rose
instead of promising the world
a smile
rather than tomorrow too
a light touch
that could never the place
of all I wanted to give
beyond a single rose
12-3-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(782 D)
I wanted too much
such a short time
to try it all
have a taste
devour more than before
to go every direction at once
But I did
so excuse the way I am
because I wanted too much
and it all I did
too
12-3-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(791 A)
I tried to shake away
shadow's memories
fallen beliefs
and dusty mirages
of when you were
an oasis to me
but trials of now
lost in forests of good byes
took me to this corner
this crossroad
this space
where I remember everything
no matter how much
I try to strike away
memory will cast me forever
in the starring role
I had
once with you
12-3-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(720 D)
The cross of reason
tossed experience into now
dreams so real now weren't
feelings once felt dissipated
wishes just another book read
(the seven seas just another pool swam)
The cross of reason
forever there
12-3-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1402 B)
The only reason
nature has let us
get this far
is because it needs
someone to water the flowers
when the rain
doesn't flow
like we do
when together
the dawn we touch
12-3-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1445)
I sang the same line
over so many times
to make it rhyme
You were following a star
I followed morning
crossed visions left me alone
if only I knew the tone
take me
the sea
I will sail forever
fallen forgotten endeavour
leave me this moment free
for all I can see
is the remainder of me
12-4-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(614 B)
While fading into you
I grabbed on to
a final portion of me
like forever
takes a final glimpse of
the moment
12-4-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1975)
As difficult as the moment appears
it is nothing
compared with
a tree from a seed
a president from a collision of sperm and egg
millions of dollars from six numbers in the lottery
another moment with you
12-4-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(61 C)
why this is this way
mist rises
rain falls
winter froze
you touch
I melt
this way it is
tomorrow too
it will be
12-4-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(2033)
Time came
when window
showed little more
than thought cleared sky
echoes whispered
shades of colours
If I knew the way
would have smelt like
a spring morning
when we believed
winter would never return
12-4-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1567)
"HOLD THE MEMORY!"
I yelled
this isn't all
that can be done
before next moment new packages now into
'remember when?'
and pouring forth
more than
better than
I watch the moment explode
shooting forth
galactic droplets
of new moments
each carrying
more than
better than
within its form
12-5-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(282)
Focusing on you
blurred the surroundings
Your life
nature's victory
Your senses
future's promise
heightened awareness
centred on you
erased everything else
the game in front slipped away
yesterday's storm blew out to sea
questions became irrelevant
answers dissolved
while focusing on you
everything became blurred
except for you
12-4-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(217 B)
Still trying to say
what should be so easy
to explain
how forests
laugh in rain
like I do in you
how the universe
took 15 billion years
to bring forth
mobile phones
and only 30 years
you
how your touch
makes me
feel like
a christmas tree
waiting to be
decorated
12-4-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1352 D)
I reached through time
to grab the bits
I wanted tomorrow to be made of
like any creator would
12-4-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(602 B)
I planted an acorn seed
and heard celery grow
in its place
I put my yacht out to sea
but woke in the bath tub
with a toy boat instead
the weather report said
the sun would shine
over my tropical island today
but i had to shovel through
four feet of snow
to get to my papaya plantation
You said you would stay with me forever
and we haven't met yet
I swam
when I should have flown
cried instead of laughed
chased cars
dogs were driving
stood naked
in a crowded subway
And told secrets on Oprah's show
otherwise
everything seems quite normal
12-5-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(602)
It was funny the way
we danced
along the shore
in the moonlight
you sang of rainbows
when no storm was in sight
I collected shells
in the night
looking for pearls
looking for love
looking for what I'd wake with
if we ever stopped dancing
long enough to dream
of the moment
like anyone having
a near-love experience
would
12-5-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(735 D)
In clashing colours
we found every difference
but a taste
of each experience
that was free
in clashing colours
12-5-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(558 C)
Rushed through
all we could have
Leaping brushed-fired passions
devoured us
you opened
I gave
you cried
I whispered
you held on
I let go
filling you with every man's desire
ACCUMULATED EVOLUTIONARY WANT
and in the moment
all creation held her breath
wondering if such fulfillment
was possible
as we rushed through
all we could have
in one final release
that is now
forever
imprinted on my consciousness
a mutating cell in all future creation.
12-5-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1232)
I waited for the final song
one last curtain call
a good bye kiss
and a passing caress
You were to become a star
here on earth
or in the sky
I never knew which
But I knew
as the applause faded
and your whispers rang in my ears
that what I wanted
what you gave
what I took
was just a borrow
an overdue loan
from this stage
just a further experience
and without saying thank you
too many times
I salute you
and ask for nothing more
but an encore
before this stage
dissolves into
some future production
12-5-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(771 B)
If nature
changed her mind
as often as I do
there'd be blizzards in Pago Pago
spring in the winter
the sun would stop then go the opposite direction
cows would give eggs on Tuesdays
flowers on Friday
and there'd be one of me for each day of the week
12-7-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage( 400 B)
Like when no one notices
what is
Is the best performance possible
while the rain washes away
the stage
and in suspended thought
birds migrate
with little notice
of what is
is the best performance
possible.
12-7-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(922)
Everyone stood in line
waiting to be selected
like a best thought of the day
waits to be realized
Friday waits Thursday to end
a rose waits to be given
and I wait for you to see
I have selected you
like I hope you have me
12-7-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(188)
too much junk mail
too many sensational headlines
and too few peaceful times
left me looking for a comfortable seat
in the midst of a tornado
just to watch
not be changed
12-7-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1617)
I was ready
times weren't
I was there
space wasn't
I wanted you
you didn't know
time and space
didn't exist
12-7-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(834)
One step from the finish
I realized
I was in the wrong race
But it was o.k.
because I was only one step away
from starting a new one
this time correctly run
12-7-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1162)
I made
a hundred
photocopies
of the moment
I met you
and
hand them out
to myself
each time
the moment
tries
to
slip
away
12-13-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(553 B)
Here we are
funny to say
flowers laugh
rain screams
dove for evening meal
but
though
maybe
it is possible
funny to say
we never knew
that it truly
is this way
12-7-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(276)
I was just getting warmed up
decades of experience
(lay like tumbled children's blocks)
picked up and used again
to make a bridge
recycled experiences
led me to be free once again
like before blocks of life
began to tumble
12-7-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(628)
each moment chosen
like ripen fruit
a perfect gift
each magical touch
the taste of
new fallen snow
and the glow of a first touch
is nothing but perfect
in each moment chosen
12-13-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(169 B)
Surprised by the movement
through space
of what I wanted
as it pushed aside
all resistance
and made room in chaos
for all
I wanted
12-13-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1365 B)
Each time I turn around
facing direction's perspective
laughs like time
in the rain
does
12-13-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(198)
On the back of yesterday
I wrote what happened
How the morning exploded
day gave meaning
freedom flew
and so did I
on the back of yesterday
I never wished for now
to be so far away
from then
and remembered so well
12-13-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1165 B)
Children are not
the souvenirs of love
but travelling
theme parks
they are
12-14-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(116)
There were so many choices
I fell asleep
and dreamt each one
complete
that is why
I see rainbows
when others see clouds
And so should we.
12-14-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1489)
If every direction traveled
arrived at the perfect destination
Discovery forever
would stand behind
closed doors
laughing at us
12-14-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(349)
A close score
with little time left
all the players
waited in evening's fading
light
as the stars began to shine
to make complete every game
that no longer
needs morning to show
winners
like we do
each time we touch
12-15-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(6)
I don't like art
I don't like writing
that is why I drew a poem
in the sky
just to watch it
disappear
like I do
each time I read
what I write.
12-16-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(330)
Like any good audience
we are still waiting for
the punch line
2000 years later
12-17-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(908)
In mistaken identities
trees sprout wings
birds grow roots
and gravity tossed us into space
like love
with no way
to keep us down to earth
12-17-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(565 B)
Morning filled
night before
breeze returned
with your scents
your desire
still fulfilling
bringing now
with
your return
12-22-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(976)
If only images
were found
to be real
I would become lost
in the image of you
12-22-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(405 B)
I thought it was the end of the world
when the changes began.
As if time really cared
or the sky would disappear
or elephants would stop dancing.
12-22-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(66 B)
With no time left
I asked to spend forever with you
With no space
I asked
if there was room for me
In the frozen wastelands
I looked for a tropical taste of you.
12-22-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(2043)
I have given you
all the great lines
but we have yet
to dance
I have shown all the possibilities
you have yet to show any
I have visited the stars
you are still here
and the point is
we never go
beyond our own
perspective
12-22-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(462)
While focusing on you
I lost sight
of everything else
that is why
I'm wet
from walking into the sea
thinking I was walking
into you
That is why
I'm bleeding
from cutting myself in two
on a mirror
I was hanging
thinking it was you
That is how
I became lost
thinking I had found you
focusing too
on me.
12-22-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1977)
Brandy coloured morning
revealed
last night
never ending
12-22-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(99 D)
Something to reach for like dawn
at the horizon
rain
above clouds
and love
before doubt
something to reach for
never having
12-22-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1312)
We touched the stars
before we were ready
NOW
without oxygen
without bodies
without life
WE search
how to come back down-to-earth
once again
12-22-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1835)
It's o.k. to take a break
waste some time
take a nap
go for a walk
fondle
the sun is expected
to shine
for a few billion
more years
and so can we
or at least
some part of
us
5-7-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(732)
We are always
While pushing past the limits once believed
I tossed away bewilderment with
'I don't think it is possible'
touching space and understanding it too
so that all achievments until now
were nothing more
than cave paintings
just some muddled hieroglyphics
like old age without reason
But that's all behind
back in humanity's nursery book stage
Freedom is the real frontier
with fear of guilt and misplaced beliefs
being the savage native
hiding in the psychic
waiting to attack free thinking
with primitive weapons
of guilt, fear, and mysticism
But it is too late
freedom to know will conquer
and push the only true-value frontier open
so every universe
without secret
is left bare
to enter
and have
4/9/93 Good Friday Poem - Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1810 C)
In change
dreams come awake
in sameness
dreams go to sleep.
4-12-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(558)
Desire is the slave
of freedom
4-13-92 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(155 b)
if everyone knew
what I know now
holy cow
I'd be out the door
for ever more
that's for sure
But I'm not
so here I am
waiting for more
outside your door
4-14-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(350)
In chosen images
beliefs reveal
what is real
like this moment does
rising over a new horizon
in unsettled times
where seas
pierce clouded evenings
tranquil message
of what is believed,
and in tomorrow like again today
the future's past
reveals secret's timely wish's desire
held like forever's reflection in today
again found to be
everything worth waiting for
so as to say
yes it was as real
as ever it was meant to be.
4-16-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(558)
In ancient thought
beyond reason's pillars
everyone came together
to predict the future
in Diana's shower
But they turned on the video
and forgot to leave behind
much more
than our ancient interpretation
in times
that dispels
all
(554)
Sun doesn't see
moon doesn't rise
But we do
each time
we watch
where we're going
somewhere beyond
destiny's favorite thought
4-16-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1362)
The past
paints
tomorrow
But if we let go of it
tomorrow
will have
no added colour
to make it complete
(and memories only sleep)
'93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1424)
This moment
is so close to perfect
that to make it so now
is
no more
than a simple
rearrangement of the way it is
with open door
as an invitation
for nature
to join
in too
'93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1498 C)
This life
like so many before
is but a shadow
of our selves
travelling at the speed of laughter
through the universe
on our way
to a fish and chip shop
the only planet
that sells them
4-18-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1497 B)
THE BIG BANG
WAS
JUST
A WHIMPER
COMPARED TO
WHEN WE MET
4-18-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1388)
I awoke before time began
before music
before thought
before silence erupted
into the beginning of now
with all the followers
still waiting to awake
4-18-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(298)
FORGOTTEN
FREEDOMS
FOUND
FROZEN
FAVOUR
FOREVER
FREE
4-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(228)
How good we are tomorrow
depends on how bad
we are today
4-18-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(284)
The flower of youth
blossomed
while I looked
the other way
now in memory
I return
to when my name
was the one called
in morning's sleepless desire
4-18-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1402)
Forgetfulness of now
took me back to when
I remember you
whispering to me
'never forget this moment
and it will last forever
somewhere in mind' Now I am a forgotten foreigner
forevermore
full of
forgetfulness
of now
4-18-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(228)
For every gate
that opens
a crowd cheers
I can't see
but I hear
as the melody of strangers
asking for change
like any weekend weather person would
9-18-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(218 B)
The only predictable future
we well
ever experience
is when we do
what we do
of what we chose to do
4-19-93 (936 B)
I couldn't
t wait
so I rushed toward
the open door...
only realizing there was no floor
on the other side
after my free-fall had begun
lucky for me
I carry a parachute everywhere
for just such an emergency
4-12-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(317 A)
In broken images
and meaningless dreams
the future is drafted
and superglued into place
4-19-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(554)
While breaking shackles off of
who we perceived we were to each other
we fell in love
with who we would have been
if broken shackles long ago
had shown us now - then
11-1-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 C)
While waiting for a new leader
humanity put on clean wool socks
and though it is true
everyone was as lost as ever
we all had warm feet
that didn't smell
and with over five billion people
that is what is important.
4-19-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1814 B)
Platonistic specialization
almost stopped love's integrating freedom
from taking flight
out of the mystic plagued night
that descended so long ago
but now nears its end
as we break the 2000 year old shackles
off of the slaves
we have been
4-9-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1204)Until just a moment ago
everything made sense
now
I will have to
start all over again
so I say it was logical
4-19-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1574 B)
In the silence of my memory
you whispered a song
we once danced too
under a spring filled song
in Golden Gate Park in 1967
And in closed eyes
I now disappear
into your long ago promise
'You'll never need anyone else but me'
But the ticking of my clock
the barking of the dog
my children yelling for dinner
makes me open my eyes
remembering
I hadn't thought of you
for at least 20 years
until now.
4-18-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(649 C)
I am moving to Saturn
where there is more room
more moons
it's a heavy place
the days are longer
and it takes 28 years to equal one year
so now
I can finally get all those things done
I always said I would
and go multi-moon gazing
with the ones I love
4-19-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(292)
today is better than yesterday
tomorrow will be worse
than last Friday
But next Tuesday
will make yesterday look sad
so there!
4-19-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1531 B)
Childhood spent
childhood saved
childhood's woven parts
superglued together to remember
the moment each piece was a part of something bigger
that went broom broom click click
tick tick like a clock
(that measured the passing days of childhood)
Children never grow old
they just sprout wings and fly away
returning now and then
to look at how everything
once was together
once was a part of a movement
once was a part of everything that really mattered
until
like sections of life they were reassembled
in a mosaic of memory
just abbreviations of symbolic wholes
where one piece represents
what was played with for weeks at a time
in the labyrinth of childhood
and now is but a collage
on one of the walls of my life.
4-19-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(106)
they've taken away
the walls
left me
with no boundaries
no blocked views
no hiding place
I roll up into a ball
and roll out into the open space
I never knew existed
until they took away my walls
4-20-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1465 B)
While stretching logic
like some do the truth
I noticed an empty explanation
in the corner of a theory that could have unified it all
so now I am proud to present
the X factor that will unify all of existence
that holds it all together
that was there at the Big Bang
and will be there at the Big Crunch
and the little nibbles afterwards
and wait for it
it is laughter
that holds it all together
Because it is true (I was there)
the beginning of this present universe
started with a sneeze in the middle of a laugh
and all the galaxies
are just droplets from that sneeze
4-20-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1811 B)
the meaning of aloha
(hello - goodbye)
changed when you never returned
4-20-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1410)
It is better
to seek agreement with ourselves
than solicit it from someone else
don't you agree?
4-20-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(682)
I liked last month so much
I didn't change the calendar
and that made me so happy
I decided to change it back
all the way to when we met
twenty years ago
when I was only a day younger
than I am now
according to my calendar
4-20-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(496)
I talk fast
because I have so much to say
while others listen slowly
so they don't have to hear it all
but that's o.k.
Because the words in between
seldom have much meaning
anyway
4-20-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(662 B)
...whether is is better
to be creative and poor
or rich and uncreative
I will know once I become rich
after I find
the most creative way to do it
4-20-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1809 A)
While putting things in order
I noticed how random
the galaxies were tossed about
and thought if they can do that
so can I and that is why\
everything looks so untidy
4-20-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1810 D)
I wanted to believe
what I used to
but reality
swept away the myths
But I remember the stories
and tell them to my children
who never believed them
to begin with
4-23-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(782 B)
There are over 5 billion people on the planet
and only one in this space
at this time in history
with these thoughts
and it will never occur again
4-21-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1429 B)
I thought it was
sounds of waves crashing upon the shore
waking me from sleep
But it was just my stomach
telling me to forget
my diet
and eat a snack
in rhythm to waves upon the shore
4-23-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(668)
All the strategy
of all the people of all time
can't stop the rising sun
or love, death, taxes, birth
all the philosophies, myths, beliefs
have not changed the colour of the sky
the size of a mountain
or anything much of all
which gives little meaning
to why
ham on rhyme
is better than tofu on sprouts
8-23-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(14 B)
It was as if
you knew all along
and had to wait
all these years
for me to realize
we have been together
in one form or another
since the beginning
4-24-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(735 B)
Even with
all the distraction
of these times
I managed
to deliver fax-free
in person
all my feelings for you
to you
and again tomorrow
too
4-24-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(178)
It was as if yesterday
never had ended
But was just put on pause
for us to experience today
so we could go back to it
tomorrow
again
4-24-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(734)
change creates love
love creates change
create to change
change to create
love to change
change to love
4-24-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(104)
So simple to please
so please be simple
and let complications melt
like I do
when we are one
4-20-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(1342)
I wanted the last word
and that's why I'm still here
in the middle of time
and I'll be around at the end
if it too
just to have
the final say
4-24-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage(776)
* 466 (12x12)
NEC
Just before God
went off on holiday
I asked if things would change
There was no answer
that was when I realized
God had left earlier
than anticipated
leaving us
in change
to sort out the mess
we're in
June 7 1993 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage868
*=465 11x11
NEC
In the fickle
realms of reality
meanings
are invented
as explanations
while in my world
where reality
is kept out by walls of gold
I am free
in the security
of illusion
and the realism of magic
cascading
through senses
that never were
to be included
in this world
but
and more ?
No! There was never meant to be anything but this
passing dreams
we have been
seduced by
8-7-93 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage580
* = 464
NEC
LIFE
IS SHORT AND STRANGE
LIKE
AN ANCIENT POEM
BUT
LIVES FOREVER
LIKE AN ANCIENT POEM
JUNE 8 93 894 Victor Harbor copyright Terrell Neuage110 VICTORIA STREET
not quite
but close enough to have a name
different
but up close it all looks the same
meanings
slip away before dawn's early reveal
your touch
for a moment was almost real
tomorrow
maybe longer
pattern upon pattern
assembled secrets
chant my name
who am I?
but just another not a name
lingering on the tip
of too many swallowed
meanings
and by listening once again
the whispering shadow
reveals
your touch made me real
7/28/93 110 Victoria Street (1134)
THE WHISPERING MIST
REVEALED
YOUR TOUCH MADE ME REAL
SO NO LONGER
A SHADOW TOO
I'D BE
7/28/93 100 Victoria Street (1486)
in Sarajevo